From: ‘J’ Date: 14 May 2002 02:19AM To: ‘S’ Subject: Adulthood looms on the horizon. Hey Sis, Jade (my housemate and top chum) is looking at buying a house and she wants to go thirds with me and someone else. Do you think I should? It’s the only way I’ll ever be able to afford to buy a house that isn’t in the fucking sticks … Continue reading I’m gay, I could not possibly live in the burbs.
From: ‘J’ Date: 30 April 2002 02:14AM To: ‘S’ Subject: sweaty sandwiches and trouser demons… So I went and saw Nana on the weekend with Dick. Spent Sunday in car with Dick driving up to Lakes Entrance. I caught a train to Traralgon (I like catching trains) where Dick picked me up. Then read my book (“History of the Middle East“, thought it might annoy Dick) … Continue reading Sweaty sandwiches and trouser demons.
J’s Diary Entry 17 December 2001 Another day wasted in front of the PlayStation. God I hate holidays – I just don’t know what to do with myself. It’s beautiful weather but all I want to do is sit inside a dark room and drink beer. Good God, I’ve drunk so much beer this last fortnight. I must have gained three kilos. Can’t bring myself … Continue reading I’m drinking myself into both a stupor and a larger pants size.
J’s Diary Entry 13 November 2001 I have a feeling of profound dissatisfaction with my life tonight. Bored out of my brains Wouldn’t mind drawing but no one will pose for photographs for me anymore. Have eaten a proper dinner plus a large bag of chips and a box of BBQ Shapes. Am getting fat – Heaven’s only knows why! – and hardly even seem … Continue reading I’m a salad dodger.
J’s Diary Entry 29 October 2017 Just got back from spending the weekend at Mum’s. I was going to go down to Barwon Heads for a few days while Mum was in court for some ex-colleague’s compensation case from when she worked at the school. I decided not to got to Barwon Heads, the weather’s too crappy. Mum asked me to come down to Poo … Continue reading It’s been one of my recurring fantasies to get cancer and die.
J’s Diary Entry 15 October 2001 Only threw up once today, though thought about it two other times. Applied for a week’s holiday and started taking Aropax again. It doesn’t seem to be working too well – still having obsessive thoughts and throwing up. Ate two Milky Bars at work and liberated them 10 minutes later. I’ll be thin, but toothless. Jade is in the … Continue reading Word of the day; Elegy.
Thursday, 29 Jan 1998 Arrived home from UK. Got to Melbourne at 9pm. Glad to be home. Just a little anxious about things though, not sure why, just a general fear of “being caught out”. Caught out at what, I’m not sure. Dick* picked me up from the airport (J refers to our father by his first name). Saturday, 31 Jan 1998 Louise came … Continue reading In the Land of Oz a girl awaits.
I hope that you can forgive me for some of the things that I say to you at times. I don’t mean to, I just feel so much pain at times for all that we’ve lost. Continue reading Regrets.
Thursday, 5 September, 1996 Hey Sis, Another day dribbles by. Actually, it hasn’t dribbled, it’s been a crawl over broken glass and razor blades. I’ve had a shocking day. So irritable. Dunno what’s wrong with me. I think I need a holiday to tell the truth. I haven’t had once since you were here in December. So what have I been doing? Umm… I bleached … Continue reading It was the first outing for my new hair-do. I was absurdly hopeful.
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