I’m drinking myself into both a stupor and a larger pants size.

J’s Diary Entry 17 December 2001 Another day wasted in front of the PlayStation. God I hate holidays – I just don’t know what to do with myself.  It’s beautiful weather but all I want to do is sit inside a dark room and drink beer.  Good God, I’ve drunk so much beer this last fortnight.  I must have gained three kilos. Can’t bring myself … Continue reading I’m drinking myself into both a stupor and a larger pants size.

Mum’s Cancer = get out of stuff ya don’t wanna do.

J’s Diary Entry 16 November 2001 Well! What excitement!  Dull day at work.  Got home with an armful of junk food, five videos and a strong dose of misanthropy. Jade begged me to go out to seek drinks with her but I steadfastly refused. Then Paige asked me to go for a bike ride with her (it was a beautiful evening), again I stuck to … Continue reading Mum’s Cancer = get out of stuff ya don’t wanna do.

I’m a salad dodger.

J’s Diary Entry 13 November 2001 I have a feeling of profound dissatisfaction with my life tonight.  Bored out of my brains  Wouldn’t mind drawing but no one will pose for photographs for me anymore.  Have eaten a proper dinner plus a large bag of chips and a box of BBQ Shapes.  Am getting fat – Heaven’s only knows why! – and hardly even seem … Continue reading I’m a salad dodger.

I think about people being dead all the time.

—–Original Message—– From: S  Sent: Thursday, November 08, 2001 8:29 PM To: J Subject: No problems most of what I send is crap anyway, think of how much more time I’ll have to do some  work. I feel really bad, but I had such trouble talking to mum, it took me over a week, I don’t really know why, just found I couldn’t pick up … Continue reading I think about people being dead all the time.

I want something from someone that can’t be articulated.

J’s Diary Entry 7 November 2001 Lousy day – felt nervous at work, waiting for the kick for that mailing I fucked up. Couldn’t even check Seek.com for jobs cos they’re monitoring the internet usage now.  Got lots of work done, even if I do feel like the village idiot.  I got that awful feeling today that I was profoundly unsuited to my job.  To … Continue reading I want something from someone that can’t be articulated.

I can’t wait to hear everyone missed me.

J’s Diary Entry 5 November 2001 Bit of a shopping day today.  Got up late-ish, still a bit sick but trying valiantly to eat my way to wellness.  After watching Springer (“I’m here to fulfil my Secret Lesbian Fantasy”) Jen, Jade and I walked down to Chapel Street and did some window shopping (which I’ve always considered kind of pointless – why tease yourself?) and … Continue reading I can’t wait to hear everyone missed me.

Polaroids and Polar Bears

J’s Diary Entry 1 November 2001 Good day and crappy day.  Got out of bed late, watched some telly, did some chores then into the City for art supplies.  Spent $27 got 2 nice extra fine pens, some chalks, some charcoal.  Then I got a Sketch-A-Graph from Toys R Us.  Came home and burnt an Aphex Twin compilation while I drew some pictures of Mum. … Continue reading Polaroids and Polar Bears

It’s been one of my recurring fantasies to get cancer and die.

J’s Diary Entry 29 October 2017 Just got back from spending the weekend at Mum’s. I was going to go down to Barwon Heads for a few days while Mum was in court for some ex-colleague’s compensation case from when she worked at the school.  I decided not to got to Barwon Heads, the weather’s too crappy.  Mum asked me to come down to Poo … Continue reading It’s been one of my recurring fantasies to get cancer and die.