J’s Diary Entry

Tue 5 Jul 1994 – Left for work early today, had to be in at 7:30AM to load the recycling truck – got paid for it. Had a good chat with Anna about movies and bludged the rest of the day away.  Wrote two letters, one to S, one to myself, full of wordy self-pity and justifications for how I’ve treated and plan to treat Leah. I’ve decided that she is too taxing.  I want to retreat “she’ll thank me for it some day” – I may actually say that to her.  The phone has been ringing quite a bit but I don’t want to talk to her.  I assume it is Leah ringing, anyone else would ringing would call me at work, so I turned the ringer down and let it ring out.

I have no great desire for human contact at this point in time.